Alhamdulillah. Lovely piece Wael.

Salaam.

very well said. just what i was thinking.

Trying my best to find that point where you feel completely dissociated from the world, relationships, pain, loss. a place where this constant vibration like mercury, come to still….. at peace

we all should strive for it , if one gets to have a glimse of it , it will surely make us come back for more. a real connection.a reliable relationship. a certain comforter. a constant wellwisher even when we have done wrong.

when i stand for salat i pray , ya Allah ,give me so much pleasure and enjoyment in this salah that no temptation or lust of life can compete with it.

inside the house its the same for most of the peole , usually its their bedroom, lights closed, no ones watching you except the one you are bowing in front of. paying attention to each and every dialogue with Allah.

outside its usually something constantly changing. i live near river , a constant flow of river keeps telling me that nothing is forever, not this pain iam feeling just now, nor the happiness i was feeling yesterday. like this flowing water , life is also not constant, full of high tides and low tides, calmness with episodes of storm. it keeps changing its path , highly dependant on its origin, and it will eventually end in the sea. once its course is over its job is done, the job to benefit the areas it has flown through.and if it crosses its boundaries it is capable of causing harm.

similarly watching the clouds go by, trees that were just tiny twiglets.3 yrs ago planted just as i was watching from my window now into young trees with small fruits for all the birds to enjoy.

it gives me great connection with God that he is the owner of this river, these clouds, these trees, he is contantly changing them, nothing remains the same ever, and nothing lasts for ever. so will not my sorrows, my pain, my anger, my resentment.i must keep flowing like a river, floating like the clouds, growing like the trees ,as he is the controller of my affairs.

in my imagination ( u can call it meditation) and thats my favourite place to be, i imagine that iam siting in front of Kaaba so close that there is noting between me and black cover. all my worries, my anger , my sorrows, my grief, my love for world just stops behind me and i can switch off from the world,and switch on with Allah. this is my real place to hide. i can feel the marble floor , the feeling of complete protection like a child in mothers arms, feeling secure and loved . (i have never been to makka, but inshallah when i go there im sure it will be a dejavu feeling!

may Allah gives helps us attain that level of pleasure in salat and sujood that it takes away the tamponade of pain around heart that each and everyone of us is carrying. ameen.