The Hidden Blessings of Illness and Hardship

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By Wael Abdelgawad for IslamicSunrays.com

I’m glad and grateful that I am ill right now, and that times are hard. Does that sound crazy?

Aisha (may Allah be pleased with her) reported that the Messenger of Allah (pbuh) said, “For any adversity a Muslim suffers, Allah erases some of his sins, even though it may be no more than a thorn pricking him.” (Related by Al-Bukhari).

Another version of this Hadith is also related by Al-Bukhari on the authority of two of the Prophet’s (pbuh) companions, namely, Abu Saeed Al-Khudri and Abu Hurairah who quote him as saying: “Whatever befalls a Muslim of exhaustion, illness, worry, grief, nuisance or trouble, even though it may be no more than a prick of a thorn, earns him forgiveness by Allah of some of his sins.”

My father recently suffered a fall and broke his leg badly, and is now in a rehab center. In my personal life, two moves and one divorce in the last five years have made it hard to retain friendships, and I find myself feeling isolated. I’ve been through some painful personal experiences. And these are hard times economically as well. So there’s a lot of stress in the household.

I do my best to love my daughter more than ever, to play with her, hug and kiss her, and always remind her of Allah’s barakah. I try to make her world full of happiness, learning, and talks about Allah. I try to never let her see me sweat, as they say. But once she’s sound asleep in bed, I feel the weight of responsibility on my shoulders like a sack of stones.

So if by patiently enduring this illness and these hard times in general, I will earn Allah’s forgiveness for my sins, and maybe will be blessed in ways that I do not see, then I am grateful.

One more hadith: Jabir ibn Abdullah narrated that Allah’s Messenger salallahu alayhi wasallam said, “On the Day of Resurrection, when people who have suffered affliction are given their reward, those who are healthy will wish their skins had been cut to pieces with scissors when they were in the world.” (Al-Tirmidhi, 1570)

In other words, when people see how much reward is given to those who suffered in life, they will wish that they had suffered terribly, in the worst possible ways, so that it might become a cause of forgiveness for them in the Hereafter.

SubhanAllah, whatever pain we suffer in this life is not in vain. It is not wasted. We may cry and wince and groan over small pains, but Allah sees our suffering and will compensate us more than we can imagine, as long as we are patient and keep faith in Him. Allah the Most High has a plan for us, and He is the best of planners. We must have faith in Him and His plan for us.

Seeing the Good

Also, let us not be blind to the good things that have happened. I think this is very important. All too often we get caught up in our losses and dismiss some of Allah’s quiet gifts and blessings that have budded and opened up when we were hardly looking.

For example, I have always thought of myself as a writer at heart and have been happiest when I was pursuing that calling. When I was single I was obsessive about it. Even after a long day at work I would sit down in front of the computer in my little San Francisco loft, and write. After I got married and the responsibilities of family life fell on my shoulders I neglected my writing. Lately, however, I find myself writing daily and expressing ideas that have been growing in my heart for decades. The words flow as if they have been bottled under pressure, waiting for release. What a blessing!

In my teens I studied martial arts for some years. Life carried me in different directions and I stopped practicing but I still thought of myself as a martial artist, and kept meaning to get back into it. Finally in my late thirties I realized that my dream was passing me by. I got back into it and made a do-or-die commitment. Since then, with the moves from the Bay Area to Panama City to El Valle to Fresno, it’s been a struggle to find teachers and training partners, but I have persisted, in some cases creating my own training group out of scratch. For the last year and a half, partly as a way of dealing with loneliness and stress, I plunged myself into an intensive study of the arts.

Now I suddenly find myself entering this phase when my understanding of the arts is expanding like a tidal wave. I seem to have moved beyond rote memorization of techniques and I am able to spontaneously create combinations and visualize new possibilities. My balance is solid, my form is good. Basically, I have grasped the underlying principles of the arts and have moved beyond the 1-2-3 stage. I can finally call myself a martial artist.

That’s something I dreamed of all my life. And it came about because I was stressed!

What other secret blessings await me? What other lifelong dreams are quietly budding, getting ready to bloom?

Only Gratitude

That’s why the Messenger of Allah (pbuh) said, “How amazing is the case of the believer; there is good for him in everything, and this is only so for the believer. If he experiences something pleasant, he is thankful, and that is good for him; and if he comes across adversity, he is patient, and that is good for him.” [Muslim]

How amazing indeed! What a treasure trove of strength and mercy there is in this deen! Who can say that this is not a religion of hope?

Allah rewards the believer even for the pricking of a thorn. Who can deny that this is the attitude of a Compassionate God, One who understand us, sees our pain, cares about our suffering, and wants only good for us?

And what does Allah want in return? Only gratitude, and that our actions manifest that gratitude. Nothing more.

Allah says, “And [remember] when your Lord proclaimed, ‘If you are grateful, I will surely increase you [in favor]; but if you deny, indeed, My punishment is severe.’ “ [Surat Ibrahim 14:7]

Which brings us back to my opening statement. I am grateful and glad even for the hardships. I am aware of all of Allah’s favors, and when He says, “Then which of the favors of your Lord will you deny?” my response is, “I deny none of them, O Lord!”

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Wael Abdelgawad is an Egyptian-American living in Fresno, California. He is the founder of several Islamic websites, including Zawaj.com and IslamicAnswers.com, and also of various technology and travel websites. He is a writer and poet, and has been a web developer since 1997. This project, IslamicSunrays.com, is very dear to his heart, as it has allowed him to express ideas that have growing inside him for many years. Wael is divorced and has one lovely young daughter. He practices and teaches martial arts (somewhat obsessively), and loves Islamic books, science fiction, and vanilla fudge ice cream. Wael is an advocate for human rights and blogs about these issues at AbolishTorture.com. He is also a volunteer with the MyDeen Muslim youth organization in Fresno. Wael tagged this post with: , , , Read 266 articles by
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  1. Striving Soul says:

    I have been contemplating the same thought over the last few days, so no, your opening comment does not sound crazy. Do I enjoy emotional pain and loneliness? Not at all. But I do think Allah is giving me another chance to purify myself and show some sabr – at one point I asked for Allah to give me another chance. I know now, I should have instead just asked for Allah to forgive me and to give me good in this life and the next. Its so very difficult, but Allah has chosen this way for me, His Wisdom is greater, He knows better. Just knowing that Allah is giving me ‘a chance’ keeps me going. It turns the bitter pain into sweet comfort. I must keep reminding myself of this truth, otherwise the smile will vanish. I must be grateful for everything.

  2. Maria says:

    Pains and worries come in the life of every individual. To be honest, there is nothing we can do to get rid of them except sabr with the strong faith that this is Allah’s way of testing His loved ones otherwise our laments and complains will not take us anywhere but make our lives all the more miserable.

  3. Chronic says:

    What does Islam say about chronic illness or autoimmune diseases where every month some other part of your body is effected .. Ur swinging between sabr hope and despair. Accounting yourself of doing something wrong to others.. Then u think your so young what could you have done to hurt others. I’m just so very stressed cause I don’t wana be a burden on my parents I don’t want Allah to test them using me.. It so easy to say do sabr wallahi the definition of sabr changes when your having to deal with a b ombshell every other month.. If I knew what to do I wudn be so down and upset

    • wael says:

      I’m sorry to hear about your health problems. May Allah grant you healing and good health. You should not interpret your illness as a punishment from Allah. Everyone is tested in different ways in this life. If you lose your connection with Allah then you’ve truly lost everything. But if you strengthen your relationship with Allah then He will reward you in ways that will be visible and invisible.

      Please read this other post of mine:

      The Wisdom of the Prophet: the Incident of the Epileptic Woman

      Wael
      IslamicSunrays.com

    • Ayesha says:

      I am in the exact same position as you. I can understand the intensity, the pain, sorrow, grief, despair that you are suffering as i myself have an autoimmune disease and have been living with it along with chronic pain for 6 yrs now. It has impacted me so immensely especially because it all began when i was 15…i am now 21. I experience constant, non-stop physical pain, it is not even an exaggeration. I beg Allah to give me a day or even a minute of no pain. I wish that i had never woken up every morning because the pain is there as soon as i wake up. If anything i see no future for myself. I am so depressed and have suicidal thoughts although i would never consider actually suicide because of my fear for Allah (swt).

      At first i was angry and upset with Allah and questioned WHY? although i felt guilty asking Allah that i felt that i had to. I find it extremely difficult to pray but i do dikr. There are times where i try to constantly remember Allah and try to stay positive but it does not last because the physical and mental pain is so debilitating.And then there are times where i deliberately sin because i am so frustrated and sick to death with life. But as i grew older, I understood that this is not a punishment from Allah, but rather a test. But at the same time i don’t know how much longer i take this constant pain because i feel that i have experienced enough and i sometimes even think that i am going mad due to all the crying and depressive thoughts. Depression is somewhat inevitable with people with chronic pain.

      I would appreciate if someone could tell me or give me advice from an islamic point of view on how to tackle such a spiteful condition which affects me all the time, every minute, every second.

      Jazakallah

      • Ahmed says:

        As-Salaam Alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh sister Ayesha,

        I hope you are in the best of health and emaan, insha Allah.

        I would like to reply to your post and insha Allah give you some word of encouragement. I am in no position to advise you because I simply don’t possess sufficient knowledge of the deen.

        I would like to start by saying that “trials and hardships” is not something new to humanity, but started from the very beginning with our father and prophet Adam (alayhi as-Salaam). Every, every human and jinn shall go through trials and hardships. Some are tested with comfort and others are tested with discomfort.

        Know that, Allah will test the one whom He loves with hardship because it is easier for you to remember Allah when you are going through hardship. Ask yourself the following question: is my emaan higher when I go through trials or is it higher when I sit all day on the couch and watch tv and movies and talk on the phone with friends? Obviously your emaan is higher when you go through trials and tribulations, and this is a sign that Allah (the Most High, none has the right to be worshiped except Him) loves you, insha Allah.

        This can be seen from the hadith of nabi (saws): People who are tested the most severely are the Prophets, then the righteous, then the next best and the next best. So, my dear sister Ayesha, indeed you are closer to the prophets than the others who are being tested with comfort. So rejoice! For indeed this is something great!

        And the following from Allah the Most-High: And We will surely test you with something of fear and hunger and a loss of wealth and lives and fruits, but give good tidings to the patient. Who, when disaster strikes them, say, “Indeed we belong to Allah, and indeed to Him we will return.” Those are the ones upon whom are blessings from their Lord and mercy. And it is those who are the [rightly] guided. (Surah al-Baqarah 155-157). So, my dear sister Ayesha, keep saying “inna lillahi wa inna alayhi raji’oon” whenever you feel at unease. Unfortunately, today many of us say this dua during the event of a death, on the contrary, the ayah states to say it whenever you are being tested.

        And remember the verse: Or do you think that you will enter Paradise while such [trial] has not yet come to you as came to those who passed on before you? They were touched by poverty and hardship and were shaken until [even their] messenger and those who believed with him said,” When is the help of Allah?” Unquestionably, THE HELP OF ALLAH IS NEAR. (Surah al-Baqarah 214)

        I would close with a dua: Ya Allah, ya Rabb ul-Musa (alayhi as-Salaam), ya Rabb ul-Isa (alayhi as-Salaam), ya Rabb ul-Muhammed (sallAllahu alaihi wa Salaam), cure our sister Ayesha and the muslims of their illnesses, ameen ya Rabb.

        Also keep me in your dua as I myself am going through a great trial, inna lillahi wa inna alayhi raji’oon.

        Your brother in deen,

        Ahmed

      • Aania says:

        Make it a habit to listen to surah Rahman, morning, day and night. Read 4 quls and ayatulkursi three times each and blow on the area that hurts you and if it’s your whole body then blow on it all like you’re blowing away your pain and problem! With real vigor! Inshallah you will see a miracle if not in weeks but in months. I know two people who had last stages of cancer, young like us, and they did this ritual I guess you can call it everyday! One was so sick that his mother used to do it and blow on him, his whole body.. It is all they did, no medication, nothing. At his 6 month scan, the doctors were shocked to see that there was no sign of cancer in his body! They asked which hospital they went to etc but all they said was ‘Allah’.. The word of Allah has powers beyond imagination. Believe in it with passion and he will reward you beyond imagination. Good luck, lots of love, aania.

  4. Chronic says:

    Thanks bro I feel better.. Do u think Allah swt gets angry with me when I fall into despair every now and then.. I can’t help it sometimes.. But deep inside I know there is goodness in what’s happening.

    • wael says:

      I know that your despair doesn’t mean that you are giving up on Allah. It’s just an expression of frustration and pain. And I am sure that Allah knows the same. Allah is Ar-Rahman Ar-Raheem. He is a Merciful and Forgiving God. But try not to despair. Try to turn to Allah and seek comfort and refuge in Him.

      Wael
      IslamicSunrays.com

      • Chronic noMore says:

        Salaam bro… I’ve come back to say jzk for always being there for me. It’s been like 4 years I think.. And a lot has changed. Allah swt took away most of my illnesses .. The doctors had told me my rheumatoid would land me in a wheel chair after my next visit they discharged me cause all my symptoms disappeared. It’s been almost 3 years I just get regular hijama done as I feel it was a spirtual issue and recite the Quran for shifa.

        But sometimes I still come on here to remind myself of the struggle and the compassion you all showed me.. Esp bro wael

        Bro you have no idea how broken I was and the comfort I found in ur advice.

        I prayed for you and other ppl suffering during Ramadan..

        I also got married a few months a go.. Alhumdulilah the struggle was hard but the reward in sha”Allah sweet!

    • friend says:

      salam brother chronic,

      i have made dua for you. may allah give you health and all his special blessings on you.

      friend

      • Chronic says:

        Jazak’Allah khair. May Allah swt increase the goodness in you Ameen

        • Ahmed Adam says:

          Dear Chronic Pain Sufferer; your story touches me deeply since I have also had similar experiences as yourself, even though our age differences may be great: you are at the prime of your life, while I am in the winter of m life. Gunshot injuries from a robbery eventually led to spinal damage; I now have Fibromyalgia, Pituitary Infarct, TIA’s (mini strokes to brain); depressed immunity; lax ligament syndrome among others. I recently fell down because I am unstable on my legs and developed bleeding in my brain. I have pain every single day since 2007. I no longer know what it means to live without pain. However, the advices given by the other readers as well as the main article should fill you with hope and not despair, encouragement and not discouragement. Allah (SWT) Loves those who are close to Him and the way that we remember Allah (SWT) through Sab’r and Shukr is when we are in severe pain, medications don’t help, doctors don’t seem to care, your social life comes to a standstill and only you and your family know what you are going through. I make Dua that Allah (SWT), the Most Merciful of the Merciful, grants you full Shifa Insha-Allah (SWT). BY the way, I am a medical doctor by profession and I had assume that I would be able to provide for all my families needs; I can no longer work. The emotional turmoil for a man who cannot provide for his wife and children is one of the most difficult tasks to embrace. However, Allah (SWT) is the Best of Planners,….so which of the Favours of your Lord will you deny?

          • Chronic noMore says:

            Wa salaam I sincerely hope and pray Allah swt gives you complete shifa Ameen

            If u continue with the struggle with patience.. And every time things get that little worse take a deep breath and say Alhumdulilah Allah will never let ur struggle go to waste.. Nothing can cure us except Allah so sitting eating drinking just make dua.. Ud be surprised how powerful ur dua really is although the shaitaan would like us to believe otherwise..

  5. Samia says:

    Thank you so much for this website, it has put me a lot more at ease. I suffer with a heart problem and I spend my days feeling the symptoms of difficulty breathing and fatigue and I get really depressed. I constantly question myself, why has God done this to me? I’m only 20 years old. Nonetheless I feel much better having read this. Thank you

    • Morbid says:

      I know the feeling. I’m in my twenties too.. And used to question and worry a lot about why and how i got ill over night. With perfect health one day and the next morning my entire life changed. I find alot of comfort re reading these articles. Whenever I’m down I access this site via my iPhone.. On thetrain/bus wherever.. And for some reason my calm and comfort returns and I get back to trying to live a normal life. Sad to admit, but there are times I find this site communicates back to you lol

  6. wael says:

    Samia, I’m sorry to hear about your illness. I know the effect that chronic illness has. It breaks down our spirits and wears us out. Try to focus on the blessings in your life. I was just reading about the terrible situation in East Africa right now, and the millions who are facing starvation. Imagine having to bury your own children after they die of hunger. May Allah preserve us. So I’m not saying your problem is small, but let’s always be grateful for what we have.

    Morbid, I”m glad that this site has helped you. I’ll try to write something new this week, Insha’Allah.

    I love both of you as my brothers and sisters in Islam, and I know you can get through whatever difficulties you are facing.

    Wael

  7. Momina says:

    I have no words to describe my feelings right now. I am also only 20 and suffering from chronic diseases. One day I am totally fresh, the other day I feel in extreamly in pain. Breathing problem (asthma attack) every morning, extreamly migraine and Right now I am suffering a rare disease related to eyes which no one is able to find. No one knows whats wrong with me.. Doctors jst speculate :(. I feel so much anxiety and stress … Sorrow. I have always thought that tragics and illness and hardships has a reason behind. Everything happens for a reason. And Alhamdulillah I always get reward (visble/invisble) rewards from Allah barakah. I always thank and praise Him. But this unknown disease has take away sooo much energy, courage and sabr from me :'( … I feel I cant stand anymore. Like today.. And thats how I came across this blogpost. I jst searched more abt what Islam says abt illness and found this. I feel much better… I used be so energetic and ambitious. Now I cant read properly, cant fulfill my dreams, do what I wish for.. Does Allah SWT has better plans for me?
    Sometimes I think if i didnt suffer I would have done soo much. I have so many ambitions and I am sure I would have done them if I wasnt ill. But why this unknown disease? Is He guiding me to some other path? I have this extream yearning to talk with somone. I know that worldly doctors/thing or people cannot answer to my questions – i think this rare disease of mine which no one has found it out yet – comes from Allah as something blessing- so also the cure belongs to Him… Thts why I seek Allah. This is not matter of world, but Allah SWT.

    • noname says:

      Be happy that you are not disabled and can wake up early morning walking live your daily lifes wihtout people hurting your feelings.

  8. Aania says:

    I am 27 years old and have non hodgkins lymphoma.. I have a 3 year old daughter. When I found out that I have cancer I couldn’t believe it. First question was “why me?” I had never in my life even had a stomach infection! But I have always been a positive person and took this as an azmaish from Allah swt.. it was extremely difficult, chemotherapy, being strong for my husband n daughter and family, and fAcing the hurdles along the way.. I have a day of depression after every chemo when i feel extremely low. Listening to surah rahman, surah yaseen, Surah maryam , and reading the 4 quls, ayat-ul-kursi, works miracles!! It has been an aid and the reason for me being mashallah happy and healthy and satisfied with everything that has happened. inshallah it’s my last chemo tomorrow and then I start my antibodies treatment for 2 years every 2.5 months.

    One should never question Allah, just go with him no matter how small or big your problem may be. Yes it is frustrating at times when the pain is bad, and you feel like this is never ending, but that is the test! It can all be cured if you keep a positive mind.. Allah loves us and if he gives pain 10 times he will give happiness 500 times! Ya Allahu ya Rahmanu ya Raheemu! Our bodies are only vessels, it is our soul and mind that can conquer all if we just surrender them to Allah.

    • Wael says:

      Sister Aania, thank you so much for sharing what happened to you. You are a very strong individual ma-sha-Allah. As you said, you had to be strong for your family, and for yourself as well. The way you dealt with your experience is inspiring, as are your words about Allah.

  9. Ammar says:

    Im 23 years old and also suffer from a chronic pain problem. Sometimes I feel why me, what have I done wrong and even if life is worth living. Reading all these comments from everyone has made me feel a lot better knowing that I’m not alone and that Allah has a plan for all of us. InshAllah we will all get better soon!

  10. mohammed says:

    Assalamoalaykum brothers and sisters in islam
    i am in my thirties and have been suffering with a rare neurological disease for nearly a year now and it has really got me down as i have suffered full and partial paralysis of muscles and bodily functions from the waist down due to nerve damage.
    Alhamdolillah my faith has got me thus far but i am the same as many others where i get despondent and depressed somedays.
    It has been really humbling reading some of your stories on here as it makes my suffering seem insignificant may Allah SWT grant me the same sabar as you guys mashallah
    please pray for me and my family i have a lovely wife and 2 lovely kids by the grace of Allah SWT ALHAMDOLILLAH

    • naz says:

      salam brother… feel really bad reading your comment May allah give you sabar, and bless you and your family with all his rehmath ameeen… we are surely under a test… May we pass this test, and continue to be satisfied with Allah’s will.. My husband is also suffering from MS… Neurological proplem and cant walk hes is in his late 30’s and we have 3 kids and a wonderful family.. only if he could of walked is what I think of most of the time, when im depressed.. but alhadullialh reading all your guys comments gave me so much sabar.. My thought and prayers are with you and your family.. as well as all the other brothers and sisters going through hardships on this site… xx Naz

  11. Saira says:

    salaam to all brothers and sisters.
    I would first of all like to say reading these posts and comments have made me cry so much today. This is because all this time I thought I was alone. But so many of you have described exactly how I feel. It breaks my heart that so many people are going through this pain because I know how tough it is. May Allah SWT grant you all paradise for all the pain you have felt. I would like to ask people what their illnesses are? I have had an autoimmune disease called sarcoidosis since i was 17. I am now 23 and mashallah pregnant with my first baby. Me and my husband are very happy but I am also worried about my condition and how it will affect my pregnancy and birth. Out of all the trials Allah SWT has sent me during the course of my short life, this is the most challenging. Inshallah I am putting all of my faith in god because like all the other trials. I know Allah SWT will get me through this. I have come this far and I am determined that Allah SWT will help me. I would just like to thank you all for sharing it has really helped me and I hope and pray for all of you. My mum always said to me the more i suffer on this earth, the less i will suffer in the afterlife inshallah. I consider myself blessed even though sometimes it is very hard I just remember my mums words in the back of my head all the time. Wishing you all well inshallah.

  12. Ayesha says:

    why is suicide wrong in islam?

    • Saira says:

      because only Allah SWT has the right to take your life. Any one who commits suicide is hell bound.

    • Amy says:

      Ayesha,

      Suicide isn’t just wrong in Islam, it’s wrong even from a humanistic point of view as well as in other faiths. Suicide has always been indicative of severe mental illness and low stress thresholds. It is a coward’s way out of difficulty, and a selfish action which doesn’t take into account what the loved ones will have to deal with afterwards.

      No medical professional, scholar, religious leader, philosopher, or any other esteemed thinker worth their salt would ever condone suicide as a solution to one’s problems. The only individuals who consider suicide as a viable option are clearly thinking with poor judgement and being emotionally driven…two modes that are not representative of the higher spheres of human functioning.

  13. Ayesha says:

    Thanks for replying…i often get suicidal thoughts like many other people but of course islam stops me…i just wanted someone else to tell or explain to me as to why it was wrong…this physical pain is eating me up…i don’t know how its physically possible to be in so much pain and yet still be alive…Allah knows best.

    • Ammar says:

      Remember that your not alone, there are many of us who go through daily pain and we can all relate to you. Allah is testing us all in different ways to see if we will still have faith in him depsite the ups and downs of this material world. By committing suicide you would show that you don’t have faith in Allah’s plan for you. Keep praying and may Allah reward you sister.

    • Aishath says:

      Dear sister Ayesha,

      Suicide is strictly forbidden in Islam.

      “… Indeed, no one despairs of relief from Allah except the disbelieving
      people.” (Qur’an 12:87)

      “Say, ‘O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful.’” (Qur’an 39:53)

      Allah is the al-Rahman and al-Rahim: The most Merciful and Compassionate. As Muslims we must always hope for His mercy. And suicide is the ultimate way of rejecting that.

      I hope these two hadith clears things for you.

      Narrated Abu Huraira (ra): I heard Allah’s Messenger (SAW) saying, “The good deeds of any person will not make him enter Paradise.” They (the Prophet’s companions) said, ‘Not even you, O Allah’s Apostle?’ He said, “Not even myself, unless Allah bestows His favor and Mercy on me.” So be moderate in your religious deeds and do the deeds that are within your ability: and none of you should wish for death, for if he is a good doer, he may increase his good deeds, and if
      he is an evil doer, he may repent to Allah.” (Bukhari)

      “He who commits suicide by throttling shall keep on throttling himself in the Hell Fire (forever) and he who commits suicide by stabbing himself shall keep on stabbing himself in the Hell-Fire.” (Bukhari, Janaiz 84)

      By suicide, a person rejects hope of mercy from Allah and also firmly closes the door on Tawba (repentance).

      Remember that this life is a test. I urge you to read the following dua given the Quran:

      “Our Lord! Condemn us not if we forget or fall into error. Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden like that which You did lay on those before us. Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Blot out our sins, and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. You are our Protector. Help us against those who stand against faith.” Quran 2:286

      May Allah guide you, give you patience and good health. Aameen.

    • simra says:

      have you tried to go a herbal route for your problem? according to the holy prophet pbuh black seed oil is the cure for every disease except death. it is immensely helpful for autoimmune diseases and has science backing this up.
      i hope Allah swt gives you relief soon inshAllah

  14. Ayesha says:

    Thank you f or that. It is even worse for me because i do not have the support from my family and friends…they are no use to me. I do feel better mentally when i pray and dua to Allah but at times you also need the support of people to get you through. No one understands my condition because its invisible like many other conditions and the last people to understand are my parents and friends. I hope this ramadhan i can turn things round by becoming closer to Allah as i have sinned deliberately because of my suffering and i know that this isn’t a valid excuse.
    May Allah ease our pain inshallah.

  15. saira says:

    ayesa, may i ask what you condition is and what does it cause? stay strong. you are not alone. x

  16. Ayesha says:

    what does one do when they are physically unable to make salaah? physically exhausted and in pain and cannot do anything?

    • Wael says:

      One who cannot pray standing can pray sitting. One who cannot pray sitting can pray lying down. So a person should always be able to do salat.

      • Ayesha says:

        Would you know how praying lying down is carried out? What are the rules? Jazakallah

        • Wael says:

          I don’t think there are any rules. What I mentioned was a hadith of Rasulullah (sws), almost verbatim:

          “Pray while standing and if you can’t, pray while sitting and if you cannot do even that, then pray lying on your side.” (Bukhari)

          However, specifics were not given. For more see here:

          http://islamqa.info/en/ref/67934

  17. mohamed says:

    I am also suffering with some stomach disease….i am always dipressed and worried about it. …Please remember me in your duas aswell…..may allah (swt) heal us all and reward us in this fitnah and shower upon us his mercy…

  18. nisa says:

    Dear sister and brother in Islam:

    Make dua everyday , mostly after shalat

    Allohumma aa’ fii nii fii badaniii
    Allohumma aa’ fi nii fii sam ii’
    Allohumma aa’ fii nii bashoriii
    Laa ilaaa ha illa anta.

    May Alloh give us healty.

  19. Dalia says:

    At times I cry so much, I really want to get married but it’s so hard as I’m a sister who has a physical disability, I really at times despair, I just don’t want to be alone, I just crave that love from a husband. I just really find my life so hard. I just cannot stop crying and having these negative feelings, I wish I never had this condition. I know I shouldn’t say that but it’s so hard at times.

    • mohamed says:

      Sister i understand, but dont lose faith stay strong. Pray always and get close to allah and allah alone will look after every thing as he is the most merciful and about this life, its nothing its really short so short that we dont have time to even look back so always remember for us muslims its the akhira that matters not dunhya…….may allah (swt) have mercy upon you and find you a loving husband..ameen

      please.ask dua for me and all the sick people

    • Ayesha says:

      i wish i could give you some encouragement but i myself am the end of breaking point…i can understand you dalia even though i am not technically physically disabled but my condition is very disabling meaning i cannot do anything at times so mirroring someone who is perhaps in a wheel chair. as a woman i know where you are coming from in wanting and needing a spouse. inshallah there will be some one there out for, no doubt. Allah has planned this already. i probably cant understand the full extent to your physical disability but i do understand part of it believe me…Allah has surely given us one of the greatest tests of this earth by taking our health away. when you dont have health you have nothing. that is a fact of life. and it is normal for you to feel frustrated and angry, we are humans at the end of the day. i see myself contemplating suicide on a daily basis and what not. the truth is that we cannot run or hide from our problems and i believe the ultimate solution to all of this is to return to Allah through prayer, the one who gave this illness to us. missing prayer is no excuse i understand but i cannot pray because of my illness as it is painful, tiring etc but inshallah i am going to adhere to other ways of praying such as lying down inshallah…i realised no doctor, parents, family will help in the way Allah will and inshallah when we achieve the level of satisficaiton of life we truly wont need other people in our life because we have the Almighty. I have come to a stage where ino Allah is only going to help me truly, i knew that before but now it is strong as ever.
      inshallah your family will support you. some people are not lucky in that sense like me.
      take care,
      Ayesha xxx

  20. Ayesha says:

    Can anybody explain or help me to understand the fact that black seed oil is the cure for every disease except death. if it is the cure for every disease why are not people who are ill using this? why do not doctors recommend this etc ?

    • Wael says:

      Ayesha, the oil that comes from pressing the seeds of the Nigella Sativa plant – known as black seed oil – is beneficial in many ways. Studies have shown that black seed oil is an effective anti-oxidant, anti-bacterial, and anti-inflammatory remedy. As a result, it is often used to fight infections and strengthen the immune system. So the oil will definitely help to fight any sickness or disease, but that doesn’t meant that it will cure it outright. “Cure”, in this hadith, means that it has benefits against any sickness.

      As for why doctors don’t use it, well, Western medicine in general tends to discount the value of herbal cures or traditional folk medicine. There are many reasons for this, including the skepticism of the scientific method, and the power of the pharmaceutical companies.

  21. Dalia says:

    @Mohamed jazak Allah khair, I will pray for u.

    @ Ayesha, I’m not in a wheelchair or anything I have wounds on my body that never heal it’s an awful skin disorder that has debilitated me, therefore I wear bandages in a lot of bony areas, if I eat certain food my skin rips in my throat, it difficult but I try to be grateful. The need of a husband has truly made me feel like I’m nothing, as most men won’t accept me, I always pray to god to grant me someone who’ll love me, people say you’ll be ok if u don’t get married but do they know how hard it is to be a woman on ur own, how much physical intimacy is so important. Im never consistent in my mindset I have a few good normal day and then I despair and cry again. Whenever I hear of a fellow sister getting engaged or pregnant makes me want to cry so much inside. But I have to fake an act in front of ppl that I’m happy only my family know how I really feel. I wish more Muslim men would accept sisters with disabilities. I really do.

    • ayesha says:

      Dalia i can fully understand you and i sympathise with y ou. My thinking is however different to yours although i also do want to get married and have children etc. alhumdulliah in the past weeks i have finally been given a diagnosis for my intense suffering after 6 yrs and i am so relieved and looking forward to treatment. however the treatment is extremely difficult. i personally do not want to get married until i am better or cured. Allah has given me the most caring udnerstanding doctor ever and i do not want to let go off him because he is giving me hope that i will be cured inshallah one day but it is a very very very very long journey but with Allahs support inshallah i will make it. i do not want to get married until i am recovered. i cannot do anything for myself let alone others and most importantly i do not want to become a burden on my husband as i will not be able to do anything. i know that if i get married i will be very miserable, although i do need immense support and emotional security from someone. my family do not give me this but i do not want to ruin someone elses life just because mine is ruined. it is not fair on them. i am very sick and as you or many others know how marriage works in pakistani families i know i will have a hard struggle to come. my parents do not understand my illness properly, in fact my father is very ignorant and i think he doesnt believe me. i have begged and cried to my parents just so that they can listen to me and know whats im feeling but they are not fully convinced that i am dealing with alot of pain on a daily basis. i am 21 and i do not want to get married, i am in no physical state to get married and have responsibilties, it is impossible for me. but whatever allah does is for the best and we will see.
      i have given univeristy and work and basically everything just to get better and i couldnt be happier because now i can move forward with a diagnosis. getting better will take yrs. i sometimes still do envy my friends and other people for having a normal life but slowly i am accepting the fact that iam different and not them. infact i dont really care gave who gets married or whos graduating etc bcause Allah has a different plan for us and when i think like that i feel relief. i dont want anything in life,no luxeries nor happiness, i just want to be healthy and pain free.
      just make sincere dua to Allah to grant you a pious husband. inshallah Allah will grant you with one and im sure there is someone out there for you. maybe you should start looking around and see what kind of responses you get etc its rich coming from me but dont lose hope. xxx

  22. Dalia says:

    Thanks ayesha

    If anyone else does have any opinions please do express them, if other women with illness and or disability feel the same regarding marriage please do tell

    • Kawthar says:

      Assalamu Alaikom Dalia
      May Allah swt cure your condition. I also pray that Allah swt cures the chronic conditions of all brothers and sisters. Sister Dalia, I can understand how your condition makes you anxious of the future regarding marriage, but I would like to give you advice as a sister. Allah swt has given you an opportunity to become close to Him. As Ayesha pointed out, Allah swt has different plans for us. Allah swt may be guiding you to Jannah through the illness of yours: the sabr you go through during this difficult time may be your road to Jannah, so if you focus more on your relationship with Allah swt (through prayers, dhikr, reading quran and having faith in Allah’s plan for you), Allah swt will make your journey to Jannah easier insha Allah, and will also help you with your dunya problems (including marriage to a loving husband) as well insha Allah….Focus on Allah swt…remember, you will never be a “woman on your own” if you have Allah swt in your life, only Allah swt can provide you with the love you wish for….even if you were granted a loving husband, there will still be a void in your heart that can only be filled with the love of Allah swt.

      There is a useful article by Yasmin Mogahed about how we shouldn’t make marriage our ultimate focus in life but rather a means to get you closer to Allah swt:
      http://www.yasminmogahed.com/2012/01/03/this-is-love/

      May Allah swt grant you and all the brothers and sisters full recovery, and reward you Jannah for all your suffering, and I pray that through this illness you will become more and more close to Him, and finally I make dua that He grants you a pious husband. Ameen ya rabb al Alamin.

  23. sana says:

    Salaam
    @ayesha the problem you are suffering by any chance is it called cushing syndrome.

  24. muslim says:

    Salam aleikum my dear brothers and sisters in Islam. I dont know how truth is this story, but at least what we can learn from it is that Allah loves you.

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p070U8xdVH8&feature=youtube_gdata_player

    Dont despair in Allah, when you feel your worst moment and go and make a sin just think about its exactly what shaytan wants and Allah is watching you and waits for you to turn to Him and ask Him for help. Allah is Great and He does no mistakes, if He gives you such a test means that its good for you even if cant understand it. Imagine how many healthy people dont even remember Allah during their days and you are constantly praying Him for help… Allah loves those he test and we have to turn to Him and not to shaytan, we have to be greatefull for all Allah gives us as whatever He gives is good for us. Imagine making a sin and in an hour your destiny is to die… So you will die upon a sin?? No no talk to Allah, ask for His help.. Constantly.. Allah is Great! i was on a test myself and by the Mercy of Allah i was full of feeling that only Alah gave it to me and He is the One to take it from me.. I was praying after every fajr to Allah to help me help me help me… And i was answered!!! Please pray to Allah and believe in Him.

    • Muslimah says:

      Jazak Allah Khair for posting the you tube video…a very touching story indeed….may Allah swt grant us patience and the ability to experience His blessings in all the hardships that affect us. May Allah swt, through our hardships, bring us closer to Him. Ameen.

  25. Ayesha says:

    No sana it is not cushing syndrome. In all honesty i don’t feel like mentioning what i have.Not because iam embarrassed or whatever but because the severity of condition is underestimated by many doctors and people and i feel so distressed and hurt when no one understands and in the end i get accused, blamed etc for the state i am in today. I have just been diagnosed alhumdulliah after 6 yrs of not knowing what was wrong with me and during those 6 yrs i have been trying to live a normal life like others but i was struggling immensely inside with the pain. but i had no choice. no one listened to me…not even my parents. So that is why i am afraid of saying what i have because i will be deeply hurt like many other patients like me when people think that my condition is nothing. if my own family couldn’t listen, understand or help me then who will? and from now on forward i promised myself that i would never try to justify myself ever again because all i got was disappointment. But Allah knows and that is enough. and aldhumdulliah Allah has given me the most understanding caring doctor on this earth. never have i come across a doctor or person as understanding and caring as him and hes promised me hes going to be there for me as long as it will take for me to get better inshallah and i pray inshallah he will live to seem me recover.
    But ye thats the reason why i dont want to say what i have. i now feel that no one deserves to know because for yrs ive begged people to listen and understand me and no one did and im not going through that again.

    @muslim, i have seen that video although i have tired putting it off for so long as my friend and sister recommended me to watch that but i didnt. it has touched me deeply. i cried listening to it and it has given me so much hope and in one sense happiness. it was major relief even though i was not the one who had the dream. he must have been extremely sincere in his duas to get a dream like that. that is just beautiful.

  26. Hassan says:

    Asalam o Alaikum Brothers and Sisters,

    Wow I honestly felt so many of these stories on here are just like my own. I am a 25 year old male who suffers from many chronic illness. Sometimes I feel like I have the body of an 80 years old. I have days where I am in pain and sitting, standing and working are debilitatingly painful. I fall into despair and wonder what many here wonder “Why me”. When I see a room full of people who do not have chronic pain/illness it really bothers me and is very depressing. My mother is great support but even she does not understand what being in chronic pain does to you emotionally at a young age. She expects me to just tough it out but its very dishearting because I have battled illness after illness for 10+ years. When I am low and depressed I get angry with the circumstances and really have suicidal thoughts as well. I am somewhat ashamed to admit this as I know one should never lose hope in Allah’s mercy. I really wish there was some support group I could join for young muslims who have chronic illness/pain. The feeling that you are alone in this is the worst. When my pain levels are really bad, I am almost inconsolable and really wonder if this life is worth living. I try to stay positive but thinking about the future really scares me. What if I am unable to work etc. I know Allah is Al-Razzaq and he takes care of all but I can help but get depressed. May Allah heal us all and reward us in the next life! Keep strong my fellow brothers/sisters.

    Sincerely,
    Your brother who understand what you are going through!

  27. muslim says:

    Salam aleikum my brothers and sisters. I thinm we should help each other by marrying each other. I mean if a male is sick then a healthy woman marries him for the sale of Allah and if a woman is sick a brother marries her for the sake of Allah. All our intensions must be for Allah.

  28. dalia says:

    @Kawthar thank u so much, jazak allah khayr

    i know this is what ppeople, family say to me, i try to get strong but can easily lose it, but i’m working on it. being with someone means a lot, with a sickness or disabilty u can’t even go through matchmakers or anything you just have to wait and see what happens. at times im so lonely.

    @muslim i really agree with u, i wish that could be reality, especially with men, men are allowed to marry more than 1 wife, why can’t they marry a sister who is ill, really in need! for the sake of allah, the reward that person would get would be unimaginable that the fact they gave someone who is overlooked by people a chance. and in jannah the sick sister or brother would be totoally perfect inshallah.

  29. muslim says:

    Salam aleikum.
    I would like to share with you this article

             Five Reasons why Allah uses problems

    The problems you face will either defeat you or develop you – depending on how you respond to them. Unfortunately, most people fail to see how Allah wants to use problems for good in their lives. They react foolishly and resent their problems rather than pausing to consider what benefit they might bring. Here are five ways Allah wants to use the problems in your life: 
      1. Allah uses problems to DIRECT you.Sometimes God must light a fire under you to get you moving. Problems often point us in a new direction and motivate us to change. Is God trying to get your attention? “Sometimes it takes a painful situation to make us change our ways.”
    2. Allah uses problems to INSPECT you.People are like tea bags.if you want to know what’s inside them, just drop them into hot ever water! Has God tested your faith with a problem what do problems reveal about you? “When you have many kinds of troubles, you should be full of joy, because you know that these troubles test your faith, and this will give you patience.”
    3. Allah uses problems to CORRECT you.Some lessons we learn only through pain and failure. It’s likely that as a child your parents told you not to touch a hot stove. But you probably learned by being burned. Sometimes we only learn the value of something.health, money, a relationship.. .. by losing it. “It was the best thing that could have happened to me, for it taught me to pay attention to your laws.”
    4. Allah uses problems to PROTECT you.A problem can be a blessing in disguise if it prevents you from being harmed by something more serious. Last year a friend was fired for refusing to do something unethical that his boss had asked him to do. His unemployment was a problem – but it saved him from being convicted and sent to prison a year later when management’s actions were eventually discovered. “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good.”
    5. Allah uses problems to PERFECT you.Problems, when responded to correctly, are character builders. God is far more interested in your character than your comfort. Your relationship to God and your character are the only two things you’re going to take with youinto eternity. “We can rejoice when we run into problems. They help us learn to be patient. And patience develops strength of character in us and helps us trust God more each time we use it until finally our hope and faith arestrong and steady.”Here’s the point:Allah is at work in your life – even when you do not recognize it or understand it. But it’s much easier and profitable when you cooperate with Him.”Success can be measured not only in achievements, but in lessons learned,lives touched and moments shared along the way”

  30. Neeha says:

    Hello Wael bhaiya. I wanted to thank you for this amazing and inspiring article. You made me restore my faith. May Allah bless you and your family.

  31. Saima says:

    Assalaamu alaykum,

    Five years ago my mum was diagnosed with an illness. I became her 24 hour carer until she sadly passed away in September. May Allaah grant her Jannah. Ameen.

    In all those years, I never heard my mother complain about her illness. I never heard her question why it happened. She was patient, still, smiling and doing dhikr. I was with her when her soul left her body and I did not even realise it was happening. She was in such a peaceful daze like a nap where you are somehow aware of your surroundings. Every now and gain she would open her eyes and smile. Her soul left her body without her even flinching. I found this to be remarkable as i had always thought that the soul did not leave the body so easily.

    He illness was a horrible one but if you ever saw sat in her chair you would think there was nothing wrong with her. She was always a quiet person and very task focused. She hated back-biting and gossiping. She also hated boasting even though had blessed her with so much.

    I learnt a lot from my mother. By her actions more than her words. By her response to Allaah’s tests. I also learnt that Allaah responds to duas. She asked for health from Allaah. And although she was not cured, but the day before she passed away she had three full meals, was able to walk with assistance and more importantly speak and kiss her children.

    This is indeed the mercy of Allaah as she should have been bed ridden for months before passing away.

    I learnt from my beloved mother that patience in illness is to persistently turn to Allaah. To be still and clam. To make others feel like you are a soldier or a hero.

    • Adeeb says:

      Salam Sister,
      I love reading the comment you made about your mother, may Allah grant her Jannah. Made me feel ashamed of my complaints over little things, may Allah grant us all sabr.

  32. ayesha says:

    What am i to do when my mother says nasty things to me about my illness.. i am deeply hurt and saddened by the fact that my parents are so ignorant towards my illness. can someone give me advice on how to deal with this, i stay silent because the words my mother uses hurts me e.g. your not dead that you can’t do anything etc etc …Alhumdulliah i have finally begun my treatment after 6 yrs with no diagnosis and i am so determined to begin and commit to my treatment but i feel that my parents are holding me back from getting better just because of their ignorance towards my illness…

  33. Bintul Islaam says:

    Assalamu alaikum wa rehmatullahe wa barakatuh!

    I suffered from Major depression at the age of 14 after my mother went into coma because of Multiple Sclerosis. I suffered from it for 6 consecutive years, it would relapse every 6 months. I was in bed all the time, couldn’t even do the simplest of things, i was totally dependant on my family, i just cried all the time out of hopelessness not knowing as to when it would end. It was followed by my parents seperation, economic crisis, physical and emotional trauma. It was at that point i realised the worth of this world which i aspired for, its relationships which were more important to me than my relationship with Allaah, i understood the transient nature of everything. Allaah taught me tawakkul, patience, gratefulness, humility through all this. Allaah was planning something for me all along, HE wanted me to turn to HIM, to realise HIS presence around and to see how dependant I’m on HIM. I was distant from Allaah, and had it not been for all this i’d never have found HIM. HE is Al Lateef, he was subtely working for me, HE truly is Al Wadood, HE loved me and wanted the best for me but HE did it in ways i couldn’t comprehend at that time. After 12 years of being lost and depressed, i can finally say Allaah, oh Al Haleem you have been utterly kind to me for not giving up on me, for you were the ONE who supported this sinful servant even when she wronged herself. Ya Allaah, ya Ash Shaafi easen up the pain of my sisters and brothers, give them patience and strength, make them see the wisdom behind their pains and pour sakeenat on them Aameen!

    “Everything but Allaah has a beginning and an end. Your pain had a beginning and will have an end”- Yasmin Mogahed

    • Muslimah says:

      Yes, reading your post brought my thoughts to my consciousness. I have been going through a tough time in my life and I realise that whatever Allah plans for us has a reason, I try to find a purpose and happiness in whatever state I am in.
      I have known for a while now that I’m very dependent on worldly relations and now reading your post, I realise that I need to use this time to only depend on Allah because He will never let us down. Thank you for this post, it has brought my subconscious feelings to the forefront.

  34. sahib says:

    1. ALLAH has created us to worship him , do that properly
    2. do night prayer and supplicate sincercely to ALLAH

  35. Abu Hidaayah says:

    Asalaamu alaykum one and all. SubhanAllah i stumbled across this blog while I was searching the net for anything relating to how the beloved Prophet Muhammad (saw) managed his illness. alhamdulillah. We need to resort to all sunnahs of the prophet (saw) regarding health and illness. Dua, Honey, hijamah(cupping), black seed and many other advices from the beloved. If Allah and His beloved advises us we have to believe and have conviction that it will work in’shaa’Allah. Our Imaan demands that we believe with conviction in these prophetic cures. If all else fails, know that persevering our ailments and troubles is best for us. May Allah accept our istighfaar and make our trials a purification for us in dunya and aakhirah. Aameen.” In Allah should the believers put their trust.”

  36. MasaAllah ,SubhanaAllah,the story about the brother converting to Islam brought tears in my eyes
    may ALLAH give toufikh to all humanity..ALLAHOAKBAR!!!

  37. Sarah says:

    Assalam Alaikum,

    Brother Wael, thank you for this wonderful article. Please help me. I’ve been plagued with anxiety, doubt and horrible racing or repetitive thoughts for a few months now. I’m astonished at how my brain can come up with bizzare or irrational thoughts and I’m distressed due to this. I wasn’t a good muslim before in my younger days and I feel that this is a punishment from Allah (swt). Now, I’m a better muslim and pray 5x and try to be a good wife. I feel alone and don’t want to share my problems with others and be judged. Who knows, if this is ocd or whatever but I don’t want to see a therapist because I’m afraid opening up about these thoughts will make my condition worse or a non-muslim person will not understand what I’m dealing with. I dont want medication because in the midst of all this, we are trying to start a family and I really want to be a mother – but we are running into difficulties in that area too 🙁 I used to be a fun loving, confident person and now I’m afraid of myself and I can’t clearly run away from myself. I find myself wondering why this is happening to me. I feel trapped. I know Allah (swt) can help his believers in many ways and can heal their wounds. Will my devotion to Allah help me through this? I’m sure I’m not the first person to be dealing with this and thousands of years ago before therapy existed, how did one deal with an issue like this?? I need some advice.
    JazakAllah Khair

  38. Nus says:

    Sister Sarah, I know exactly how you feel. However, no one can walk in your shoes and truly feel the pain and anxiety you feel. And no one can help you like Allah can. It is true that some sort of support from friends and family does go a long way. But at the end of the day, it is only Allah on whom you can depend. No one will understand your needs and pain like Allah can. And no one can provide for you like Allah can. After all, Allah determines your provision, blessings and life events. My dear sister, I would suggest that firstly you make dua to Allah to help you inshallah. Secondly, grow closer to Allah spiritually. Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find content. The sahabas and scholars of times gone by had so very little, but yet were ecstatically content. Third, do not compare and assess yourself based on the materialistic standards of the corrupt times we live on. May Allah heal your wounds and guide you to placing your trust in him and finding complete serenity inshallah.

  39. Jannah my Destiny. says:

    Assalamualaikum Brothers and sisters.
    i am a 23 year old guy suffering from chronic headache for past 9 years.The Pain kills,me every minute.I am also a student of a renowned university..in this competitive era it becomes really tuff,managing studies with headache.

    i ve got to live my life in a defined boundary,failing which…the intensity of pain gets deeper.There is no day without pain in my life from past 9 years.

    But isnt it this state when i keep remembering my lord of heavens and earth Allah (Swt) often. Alhamdulilah !

    what could i better ,ask i kept becoming a better muslim.

    the best part of having chronic illness is,one’s soul in such a state keeps remembering Allah,infact i keep speaking to Allah and what not, i get a later or sooner response of the same.

    i don knw whether u guys ve experienced same but..Allah responds to things, our acts.

    The practical demonstration of “With Every hardship there is ease”(Surah inshirah) is my life itself.i ve difficulties ,struggle with chronic ailment
    but awesome parents,Certain ease while pursuing studies(the blessings for which even if i would thank Allah n times would nt be enough).

    But there is one very important factor which has to realize
    “Allah does this ,to shift our focus to HIM ,to make us realize HE is the GOAL and not the MEANS”

    ALLAH U AKBAR.

    So my friends ,i would only request keep correlating to ALLAH…

    Every Act u do ,speak,work ,gain knowledge ,just think how can u seek Allah s pleasure…tats what is the meaning of Bismillah.! as far as i ve understood..

    Walaikumasalam .

  40. Asiya says:

    I have been battling with an autoimmune disease for years, and I know the feelings of despair, confusion, desperation, and ungratefulness. The disease has affected my family life, my prospects for getting married, work, and graduate studies. The only thing that has helped me accept my disease, without questioning, is it is a means of purification, inshAllah. If no one else around you understands your pain and suffering, remember Allah does. Allah is the only One who we should complain to and Who will give us shelter. May Allah be pleased with us, ameen.

  41. N K says:

    After reading this story that was shared and then all the other stories I dont feel so alone. I am 27 now and would feel like I grew up pretty fast, there were times in my life where I had the problems of a 40 yr old.

    I was always a happy kid growing up and was a good student in school. Arranged marriage was never planned but was a beneficial thing to me. I got arranged nikaahed at 16 and that was the beginning of when everything started. My ex was abusive emotionally, physically, and verbally. No one knows how things will change and I knew I didnt either. I was so young I dont think my mind accepted what was happening which put me into deep depression. What led me into more of that was the fact that he only married me for staying in this country and had cheated on me as well. I dont wish that on anyone, probably some of the hardest darkest days of my life. At times I still cry thinking about what he put me through and how depressed I became. I was hurt, I just wasnt myself anymore, I knew I had changed and became emotionally hurt and thats wen things started to unravvle.

    I wouldnt say that Allah hasnt helped me in this time He sure has. I stayed busy, worked and continued school. The hardest battle for me was dealing with depression and after suffering from such heartbreak I met sumone else whom I thought was the one and that didnt go well either. I would think I was wrong for being divorced since his basis was that he cudnt marry me since his family wudnt accept a divorcee, and thats against their family rules… Although, in the beginning and the time I knew him he did love me and all. During this time I was diagnosed with a brain tumor as well. I remember that was 5 years after my divorce, and my mind was in a state of shock or I was just frightened. I didnt know what to think, how to react, was probably one of the hardest times I had to face as well. Sometimes, I think of these times as a nightmare and dont even believe that this was me it all happened to me and then there are times Im embarassed to tell some ppl my story cuz of all I have faced. Anyway, I had a brain tumor, my ex wasnt supportive and he also decided to end things after knowing abt my illness. Alhamdulillah I do have a supportive family and they helped me throughout this. I went for treatment for about a 1 1/2 -2 yrs to find out the tumor was starting to shrink alhamdulillah due to the meds. Chemo was a scary thought but did have to keep it open an an option.

    I am 27 now, and its 2013. I am gratedful to Allah for many blessings in life and one of them is giving me my health back. Alhamdulillah I do not have a brain tumor anymore. It has significantly shrunk. I dont know how that happened but it did and I do think miracles do happen which is probably why Im alive today.

    There are ups and downs in life and I do have days of depression. I have become very accepting of life and probably have seen a lot in 10 years. Im sure theres ppl that have and are going through more. Sometimes I do wonder if and when my depression will get better. Its been over 10 years and I still havent met the one. There were days when I was so hopeless I just gave up, my past would haunt me and make me feel like thats the reason Im single cuz Im divorced? I would feel terrible for feeling “old” But I guess theres a time and place for everything and it all comes from Allah.

    Im grateful that He gave me the courage to be better, work the times I was employed, and continue my education. I recently came across Islamicanswers.com and this site which is helping me a lot. I used to be the one that lost hope in everything, was upset with Allah for testing me so much, and it definitely is hard still being single. I do know He brought me to these sites for a reason to give me hope again and inshAllah fill my life with happiness once again. Im very grateful to Him for that Alhamdulillah and may Allah reward the person that started this good deed.

    Nvr loose hope in Allah. You call upon Him once He well never let you down.

    I pray for all of those that are ill and wish Allah gives you good health. May Allah bless us all with happiness. AMEEN

  42. A Muslimah from UK says:

    Salaam alaikum

    I have had anxiety and clinical depression ever since I was 12 years old. I also had Trichotillomania ever since I was 12 years old (pulling out the hair from head). I have suffered for 10 years and it continues. As a result, I have looked like a boy ever since I was 12.

    I wear hijab therefore no one except my family knows my illness. However, my illnesses have Crippled my inner happiness and my self esteem. I also cannot get married due to my illness which makes me sad.
    I also could not continue my studies as my illness got extremely bad due to a recent traumatising event. My family called me a failure because of this and they do not empathise much for my illness. My parents disregard that I am a practising muslimah who is chaste and obedient. They call me a failure because I am ill and cannot study anymore and also because no one will marry an ill girl like me.

    I do wish to marry but it is an impossible dream. Not even my own family treat me well so I doubt some stranger man who becomes my husband, will ever be totally loving and accepting towards me. I am in a shell of fear and sadness. I feel trapped and neglected.

    The only humans I depend on are my family, yet my family have not given me much support for my illness or troubles. They put me down instead and this worsens my condition yet they do not care. I only have my family and have no cousins etc or any friends to turn to. My family have (in the past) mocked me and put me down in several ways.
    I feel very neglected by everyone.

    I have never made friends ever since I was 12 because of my illness and I was always afraid of boys ever since I was a child. I also soon became afraid of girls as I noticed they played with each other’s hair, but I had no hair so I stayed away from every person and remained lonely.

    I only have Allah but I feel like a disappointment to him aswell because I am not pious like sahahabs and sheikhs etc. I am just a muslim who does the fardh and sunnahs but doesn’t do a lot of extra ibadat. So I am not special thus I feel like my illness is some kind of punishment as I cannot be that dear to Allah for Him to test me so hard like this.

    I have had ruqyah but it didn’t work. I also refuse seeing doctors because they have no cure. I researched the medicines they give and those medicines actually worsen depression. Thus I only rely on Allah to cure me. I try my best to be patient but I have cried almost every day for the past 10 yrs and counting, and I hope this does not displease Allah. It is how I can temporarily numb myself inside from all the pain and lovelessness/neglect I feel, and then I can finally sleep after 2 hours of crying alone.

    I wish I could vent to someone compassionate about my problems but no one seems compassionate in this world anymore. People are too concerned with themselves. So I have kept all this sorrow inside and I feel like I am going to shatter even further. I really hope death comes swiftly and I die in a sinless state inshallah – me dying will be no great loss to anyone as I seem to unknowingly disappoint people in some way. I am just not good or perfect enough.

    Please make dua for me.
    Jazakallah khairan

    -A muslimah who suffers from clinical depression, anxiety and Trichotillomania for 10 years (and it continues)

    • N K says:

      @ a Muslimah from UK:

      Salaam sister,

      I am sorry to hear abt u story, I understand how hard it can be to go thru depression for such a long time as I have gone thru it myself for the past ten years.

      Ur not alone, Allah is and always will be with u. There are sum nice ppl in the world and I sincerely have faith in that. My mother always tells me theres sumone for everyone and Allah has already made pairs for us as said in surah Yaseen.

      As for ur treatment im sure theres sumthing that cud be done, plz dnt give up. I know its frustrating but faith and hope is all we have rite?
      InshAllah there is sumthing for u too that will help u out. Im a true believer that namaaz, and Quran have shifa. Certain things my parents always told me are starting to cme in front of me and I pray that anyone in distress sees how Allah will turn things around for them. Meds have their pros and cons. Maybe its the Dr ur seeing? Sumtimes u have to see which ones are most beneficial, and of course be a 100% honest with the DR abt ur symptoms so they can treat u accordingly.

      Dont feel alone, Allah has nice ppl in this world. Ur more than welcome to talk to me here if u like. May Allah help u.

    • Adeeb says:

      Walaikumassalam Sister,

      Sorry to hear about your sadness. Will make dua for you insha’allah. Have you tried Islamic counselling? There are at least 2 very good services in the UK, one is called Sakoon and the other Sakinah.

      Please give them a try, they will listen compassionately to your difficulties.

      Wasalam

      Adeeb

  43. Slave of ALLAH says:

    This story about “Istighfar” is from the life of Imam Ahmed Bin Hanbal, who is considered as a renowned scholar of Islam and a famous theologian. Imam Ahmed is also considered to be the founder of the Hanbali school of fiqh (Islamic jurisprudence) and is one of the most celebrated Sunni theologians, often referred to as the “Sheikh ul-Islam” or the “Imam of Ahl al-Sunnah.”

    During his old age, while Imam Ahmed was travelling he stopped by a town. After the prayers, he wanted to stay for the night in the masjid yard because he didn’t know anyone in the town. Owing to his humility, he hadn’t introduced himself to anyone thinking that if he did, he would be welcomed by many people.

    Failing to recognize Ahmed bin Hanbal, the caretaker of the mosque refused to let him stay in the mosque. As Imam Ahmed was quite old, the caretaker had to drag him out of the mosque. On seeing this, a baker from a nearby place felt pity for this man (Imam Ahmed) and offered to be the host to him for the night. During his stay with the baker, Imam Ahmed observed that the baker would constantly recite Istighfar (seek forgiveness from Allah). Imam Ahmed asked the baker if the constant practice of saying Istighfar had any effect on him. The baker responded by telling Imam Ahmed that Allah had accepted all of his duas (supplications), except one. When he asked him what dua was it that hadn’t been accepted, the baker replied that he had been asking Allah to provide him the privilege to meet the famous scholar Imam Ahmed bin Hanbal.

    On this, Imam Ahmed bin Hanbal said that Allah had not only listened to his dua but had dragged him onto his (the baker’s) doorsteps. [Summarized from Al Jumuah magazine, vol 19, issue 7]

    This story is a reminder of the power of saying Istighfar (seeking forgiveness) frequently. Let’s remember that the prophet used to say Istighfar frequently during the day. Tafseer Al-Qurtubi states:

    A man complained to Al-Hasan about a drought, and he said to him: “Pray to Allah for forgiveness.”

    Another man complained to him of poverty and he said to him: “Pray to Allah to forgive you.”

    Another man said to him: “Pray to Allah to bless me with a child.” He said: “Pray to Allah for forgiveness.”

    Another complained to him that his garden was dry. He said to him: “Pray to Allah for forgiveness.”

    He was asked about it and he said: “This is not my personal opinion, for Allah says in Surah Nooh (interpretation of the meaning): ‘Ask forgiveness from your Lord, verily, He is Oft Forgiving; He will send rain to you in abundance. And give you increase in wealth and children, and bestow on you gardens and bestow on you rivers.” Tafseer Al-Qurtubi (18/301-302)

    One of the narrators of a Hadith was asked about the manner in which forgiveness is to be sought, to which he answered: “The Messenger of Allah (sallallaahu ’alayhi wa sallam) used to say: ‘Astaghfirullah! Astaghfirullah! (I beseech Allah for forgiveness, I beseech Allah for forgiveness)’.” [Sahih Muslim].

    • Wael says:

      Jazak Allah khayr for sharing this beautiful story.

      • ahmed78 says:

        All salamou alaykom,I have to say that I was touched by the stories of strength,iman and solidarity of all of you brothers and sisters,allahoma achfi jamiaa al mouslimin wal mouslimat wal mouminin wal mouminat.
        Walla tansawna fi douaaikom jazakom allahou khayran.

  44. Maira says:

    Aoa wr wb to all the Muslim brothers and sisters who posted here. First of all, Jazak Allah khayr brother Wael for this amazing effort. In my personal opinion, you have already begun being rewarded by Allah swt for your patience during your own hardships. Every person who reads this or any other post of yours gains something and the reward for that goes directly in your book of deeds 🙂 Many, many du’as for you and your daughter.
    I myself have been struggling with a mild disease for some time, however, Alhamdulilah i Rabbil Alimeen, my sickness is nowhere near as serious or debilitating as the ones that have been mentioned by so many brothers and sisters here. Allah willing, He will soon cure me of my ailment in sha Allah. Topping it all off are my absolutely amazing and supportive parents who have been behind my back since forever in spite of me being an adopted child. I can’t ever thank Allah swt enough for granting me with such a supportive and understanding family, especially my amazing mother. She is a special gift to me by Allah swt.
    I cried so much after reading each comment. My friends, I came to realize that all of you are such special people of Allah swt! No ordinary Muslim like me will be able to go through such circumstances with such patience and steadfastness like you people are dealing with it all! I feel so inspired by the stories of each one of you. I sincerely pray to Allah swt to grant you people the sabr and courage to fight these diseases and to grant you people immense rewards for your patience in this life and the hereafter. Just do not forget one thing: Allah is Al-wadood (the Loving) and loves us seventy times more than our own mothers. He has the power to cure you of your sickness in the blink of an eye. He is in charge of everything, including curing sicknesses. And He will do that in sha Allah. He just wants to see who remains patient and keeps faith in Him during the hard times, SO THAT HE MAY BLESS YOU BOTH IN THIS LIFE AND THE LIFE OF HEREAFTER. Allah swt has a plan for all of us, if we just remain patient. Be patient, let Allah swt, Al-Lateef do His work and keep earning sawaab 🙂 In sha Allah after this patience and perseverance, you will be granted with so much that you will be in awe. Keep making du’a because according to a hadith narrated in Ibn Majah, Prophet Muhammad (saww) said that the du’a of an ailing (sick) person is like the du’a of the angels (readily accepted). May Allah swt have mercy on all of our ummah and grant health to all of us. Ameen.

    • Wael says:

      Maira, what a beautiful comment. Thank you. May Allah give you healing from your illness. And please pray the same for me, as I have been coughing for more than a month now, and I am coughing as I write this.

      Wael
      IslamicAnswers.com Editor

      • Maira says:

        Jazak Allah khayr for the sincere prayer. May Allah swt shoo away your cough asap in sha Allah! May He, the most Merciful grant shifaa to all our Muslim brothers and sisters out there.

  45. hidayah says:

    subhanallah! this article really touched my heart and even made me broke into tears… :’)

    “We may cry and wince and groan over small pains, but Allah sees our suffering and will compensate us more than we can imagine, as long as we are patient and keep faith in Him. Allah the Most High has a plan for us, and He is the best of planners. We must have faith in Him and His plan for us”.

    yes..Allah see our suffering…He understand us..He very care about us..and everything that happened to us none not wasted…how comfort it is, when we have been guarded by Him :’) SUBHANALLAH, ALHAMDULILLAH, ALLAHUAKBAR!

  46. stephanie says:

    I am rather new to islam though I have been married to a Muslim for over 20 years. I am being tested with my fathers cancer. I grew up in a home full of mental, physical, and sexual abuse. As an adult I can now see that good has come from it. God does not always answer our prayers in the way we think he will. For me, I realize the abuse I suffered as a child made me a better mother. God did say “did you think I would not test you and your faith?’

    Now with my father being close to death, I pray and ask him to help me through. I pray that I get whatever message or lesson he wants to teach me. I watch for signs of God and I see them EVERYWHERE! My father will pass from this life and will be in Gods loving arms soon but I have a mother who will need comfort and love. I pray that he gives me strength to be there for her and I thank God that he shows me that even though this is a hard lesson, there will be good in it too. I promised that I will pass on some goodness every day no matter how much I am hurting. I want to pass on something positive to at lease 1 person everyday. Even if it is a smile, a kind word, paying for someone’s purchase at the store, giving a hug and kind words to a stranger. I want to make a difference every day. May Allah bless me and make it possible.

  47. Anonymous says:

    Aoa. Reading all of these posts truly brought tears to my eyes too. I pray for all of you from the bottom of my heart and do pray for me too. I am going through an illness myself, but coming across the story and patience of prophet Ayub (AS) gave me some comfort.

    Not only ordinary people, but also prophets whom Allah loves dearly have been tested and prophet Ayub (AS) was tested with illness. Prophet Ayub (AS) became the symbol of sabr, patience. Here is the story of Prophet Ayub (AS):

    Prophet Ayyub AS was one of the descendants of Prophet Ibrahim AS and a nephew of Prophet Yaakub AS.

    Ayyub’s AS steadfastness in the face of the most awesome trials originated the well-known expression, “the patience of Ayyub”, and he is one of the prophets to have received revelation from Allah, as the Qur’an says in Surat Al-An’am (6:84).

    AYYUB AS DISPLAYS PATIENCE

    It is reported that Ayyub AS lived in Syria, near Damascus. Allah had granted him great wealth in the form of lands, herds and servants, and he had a devoted family. With all that, he was a humble man of great piety, constantly glorifying and devoutly thanking his Lord.

    Allah then tested him with a series of calamities. Classical Qur’an commentators say that Allah first tested Ayyub AS by suddenly stripping away all his wealth and property. But Ayyub AS remained firm and constant, not shattered or even shaken by this disaster, and continued to glorify his Lord.

    Allah then took the lives of Ayyub’s AS many children. This too did not change him, and he continued to be steadfast in service and devotion to his Lord. Allah then took away his health, afflicting him with terrible pain and suffering, and such loathsome ailments that people shunned him. Still Ayyub’s AS faith and serenity remained undisturbed, for his heart was with Allah. It is said that there was no one on the face of the earth more honourable to Allah than Ayyub AS.

    Ayyub’s AS disease lasted so long that his companions left him and visitors were disgusted by him. They expelled him from his city and threw him onto a refuse heap outside the city, and people abandoned him and boycotted him. No one remained sympathetic to him except his wife. She would care for him and always recall his earlier good treatment of her and his love of her.

    “So she nursed him and looked after his welfare and helped him to fulfil his needs and stood by him. He condition deteriorated and her money decreased to the point at which she served people for wages to feed him and provide for his other needs, may Allah be pleased with her, and she was very patient with all that occurred as their wealth and children were taken away from them. Thus in addition to the calamity of her husband, she suffered from lack of means, and was obliged to serve people after having had wealth and happiness and servants and honour. To Allah we belong and to Him we return.” (Ibn Kathir)

    THE RESTORATION

    Ayyub AS remained in his trial for eighteen years, and his near and far friends and relatives left him. Then one day, Allah removed his affliction from him and he was as sound as he had been previously. When his wife saw him she said, “May Allah bless you, have you seen the prophet of Allah who was ill here? And by Allah, I have not seen a man more similar to him when he was healthy than you!”

    He said, “Indeed, I am he!” (Ibn Kathir)

    Together with his health, Ibn Abbas adds, Allah most High also restored Ayyub’s AS wealth and children to their previous state and granted him even more.

    Yet one difficulty still remained for Ayyub AS, referred to in Allah’s instructions to him,

    “And take in your hand a bunch [of grass] and strike with it and do not break your oath.” (Qur’an 38:44)

    And Allah adds about His prophet,

    Indeed, We found him patient, an excellent servant. Indeed, he was one repeatedly turning back [to Allah]. (Qur’an 38:44)

    Allah had previously ordered Ayyub AS to strike the earth with his foot for healing (Qur’an 38:42).

    And now, so that he would not violate an oath he had previously taken, Allah ordered him to take a bundle of something in his hand and strike something or someone with it. And according to Qur’anic commentators, that someone was his patient wife, who was an epitome of selflessness and goodness, being a descendent of prophets.

    According to commentators, for some reason Ayyub AS, the immensely patient prophet who bore such heavy afflictions without complaint, became angry with his wife for something she had done or said.

    The most likely explanation among those offered by the commentators seems to be the following:

    Without intending any harm, out of her deeps compassion for her husband’s suffering and her profound exhaustion as his only caregiver, Ayyub’s AS wife listed to the advice from Shaytan and said something to Ayyub AS concerning his trials which seemed blasphemous. Ayyub AS advised her to repent and ask forgiveness, but when she seemed to hold back from doing so, he became angry with her for the sake of Allah.

    Then, in his suffering and loneliness, Ayyub AS cried to Allah, saying,

    “Indeed, adversity has touched me, and you are the Most Merciful of the merciful.” (Qur’an 21:83)

    And because of all the afflictions he had experienced were not as great a trial to him as Shaytan’s attempt to turn him away from satisfaction with his Lord and make him ungrateful, impatient and despairing, he added,

    “Indeed, Satan has touched me with hardship and torment.” (Qur’an 38:41)

    Thus it was that when Allah accepted his prayer and removed his affliction, Ayyub AS was faced with a dilemma in connection with the oath he had taken. If he kept his oath, he would harm the faithful, loving wife, who deserved nothing but the best from him. However, if he did not, he would violate his word, and both these alternatives were unacceptable and displeasing to his Lord.

    Allah most High, who knows all the innermost secrets of the heart, then, appointed for Ayyub AS a way out of his double dilemma by asking him to take a bundle in his hand and strike with it in order not to break his oath. According to commentators, Ayyub AS made a bundle of date palm branches and gently touched his wife with it.

    It is said that Ayyub AS lived ninety-three years or more. He appointed his son as his heir, and after him, Allah appointed another of his sons as a prophet calling him Dhul-Kifl AS.

    REFLECTION

    Ayyub’s AS story occupies a unique place among the stories of the prophets, first because it is both a personal history as well as a parable of testing and patience. Second, unlike earlier prophets, there is no evidence that Ayyub AS was sent with a message to his people or that he had a following. Rather, his prophetic mission consisted of his silent example of steadfastness and devotion to his Lord under the heaviest trials.

    He was afflicted with such a repulsive disease that virtually everyone deserted him except his faithful wife and he was considered so vile that he was left upon a refuse heap outside the city. Nevertheless, not only did he not complain, but he continued to praise and glorify his Lord with whatever was left of his strength. His example, therefore, is especially relevant to sufferers whose affliction is increased by the loss of their dignity.

    Ayyub’s AS story therefore contains vital and precious lessons for mankind. One of these is the lesson of fortifying one’s heart in trials and suffering with the constant glorification and remembrance of Allah most High. Another lesson is that enduring suffering and affliction with patience and steadfastness provides one of the best opportunities and surest means of strengthening our souls and coming closer to Allah.

    Obviously when we are preoccupied with this world’s life and are happy, healthy, well-off surrounded by family, friends and good things, we are likely to give less time and attention to Allah and to our spiritual life. But when this good is taken from us, we turn to Him quickly, crying for help. The fire of suffering then softens and melts our hearts until they are tender and receptive, giving us an opportunity we might otherwise not have had of coming nearer and nearer to our Lord, until, for some servants like Ayyub AS, their beloved Allah occupies their hearts to the exclusion of all else.

    May Allah’s best blessings and peace be upon that patient prophet, our example in adversity. This source is from: http://www.hadithoftheday.com/did-you-know/stories-of-the-prophets/ayyub/

    I know that what everyone is going through isn’t easy at all, but maybe it will be a bit easier if we have sabr, just like Prophet Ayub (AS) during this difficult time. May Allah forgive our sins and grant all of us health. Ameen.

  48. fatima says:

    SubhanahALLAH , What awonderful website you have brother wael, not only inspiring but it makes good beneficial knowledge of everything specially to our religion islam. the article is amazing as well as the people who comment. i realy ove this site as of now i am suffering emotionaly, physically, and mentaly and i feel i get stronger first by the help of ALLAH and the rest through your website and the wonderful people comment. Thank you so much to all of u specially for u my brother . today my dua is may The MERCIFUL ALLAH Unite us in paradise…amen

  49. Muhammad says:

    Salaam Wael

    I’ve performed Hazz and Umrah. I’ve seen the Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) in my childhood dreams.

    I always try to show mercy to all living things. I always try to save even the insects or animals when they need help. I give money to the poor.

    But I come from a broken family. Never had the love of father and mother together. Mother didn’t want to keep me with her. Father kept me with him but with Step-Mother’s family. I never had peace, never had a good life. I cried my whole life just to get some mental peace.

    I had a girl friend who practiced black magic on me. Then we broke up. Years later I got married to a relative of my Step-Mother’s family. Within 8 months she gave me divorce. And I swear by the name of Allah, I still don’t know why she gave divorce! I did everything for her, but she deserted me.

    I have full faith in ALLMIGHTY ALLAH. But I don’t say my prayers any longer. I’ve lost all hope of anything good in my life. Just waiting to pass away the remaining days of my life as quickly as I can. I’m 36 years old.

    Why did ALL these happen to me? Didn’t I have the right to live a natural life like others? Why is my life so unnatural, painful? You got any answer for that? Why has ALLAH choosen me to make me suffer like this?

    Waiting for your answer brother!

  50. Muhammad says:

    Brother Wael,

    I’m still confused with everything. Please show me some truth.

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